the past is a jean jacket

why am i nostalgic for the shitty times in my life?

Reminiscent of being in a heavily postered room with rock music blasting, Cloud Delfina Cardona’s debut collection the past is a jean jacket is a time capsule of a 90s queer, Latinx teenhood. 

Cardona’s speaker explores their gender through sex and relationships, searches for belonging in their family lineage, and copes with depression using movies, indie bands, cigarettes, and tumblr.

Featuring compelling visual collages and inventive imagery throughout, these poems are firmly rooted in Southern Texas. Cardona brings readers to a jukebox on S LBJ Drive, underneath a Catholic girls high school, and to “San Marcos sunsets above the HEB parking lot” with weighted and poignant reflection. Each careful line produces a soundtrack to a passionate coming-of-age and implores us all to be gentle, yet honest, with our younger selves.

Evocative and blunt, the past is a jean jacket asks the essential existential questions: “where did all the wishes of my ancestors go? / what memory of me will play in someone’s head before i die for the final time?”

Praise for the past is a jean jacket

“A mastery of the understated, an effortless shot to the heart. Within these pages I feel Courtney Love, I taste nicotine/lip gloss, and I see a writer who is in full control. This book will give you what you want, because sometimes we desperately need to be devastated, or in love, or to disappear.” —Amber Isaac, author of Peppermint

“Cloud Delfina Cardona's the past is a jean jacket is wondrous, a cross-faded dream state of poetic exploration, playfulness, and talent that could only come out of San Anto. Cardona eschews nostalgia for the real and honest, ruminating on pop culture of yesteryear, the tías in our lives, and the Texas sky to ask devastating questions laced with melancholy and love. There is no sugar coating of the past in these poems but affectionate and blunt explorations of the self that feel vulnerable yet just right. Each poem results in a momentary state of disassociation that segues into new realities, a reborn sense of the self for the speaker and reader. Cardona is our Poet Laureate of Longing; I give my salute.” —Reyes Ramirez, author of El Rey of Gold Teeth